You're allowed to be honest with God about being disappointed by Him. Scripture shows He can handle it.
// the word for this moment
“My God, my God, why hast thou forsaken me? why art thou so far from helping me, and from the words of my roaring? O my God, I cry in the daytime, but thou hearest not; and in the night season, and am not silent.”
Psalm 22:1-2 (KJV)
“Also when I cry and shout, he shutteth out my prayer.”
Lamentations 3:8 (KJV)“Will the Lord cast off for ever? and will he be favourable no more? Is his mercy clean gone for ever? doth his promise fail for evermore? Hath God forgotten to be gracious? hath he in anger shut up his tender mercies? Selah.”
Psalm 77:7-9 (KJV)Psalm 22:1 is a verse Jesus quoted from the cross — which means the experience of feeling abandoned by God isn't a sign of weak faith. It's a feeling that Jesus Himself expressed in His darkest moment. The Psalms of lament are in the Bible not as examples of bad theology to avoid, but as honest prayers God preserved because He wants us to know: bringing disappointment to Him is not disqualifying. It's the right place to bring it.